New Year

Sometimes I think relationships are stupid. But then I think I need to be more matured.

I wish my past relationships never happened. If God forbid I wish the last 3 years never happened. So it wouldn't give room for comparisons, or criticisms.

I wish I could focus on the present. I would like to build this relationship with B without my past dragging me behind. Wish I could handle everything better - family, relationship, friendships, work. I hope I can be more forgiving, more understanding and be a better gf & daughter. 

To everyone who says you should never keep in contact with your exes, I'm starting to feel you now. 

Who doesn't want things to work out in the end? Not me. Wishing that this New Year will give me greater wisdom, maturity & patience and less tears. 

Happy Chinese New Year!