Ushering August in

The dance concept video I did for Qi Yong. A relatively old video, but never fails to rake up emotions in me when I watch it (putting aside my failed acting). For those who've not watched it, listen to the lyrics, feel and understand the dance, I am sure it is relevant to you somehow. A good job to the choreographer especially when it's a first.

Everytime I compose a post, I spend a great deal of time thinking what to write mainly because I write only when I'm sad/angry and putting sadness and anger into words isn't the easiest of things. But this time, I spent little to no effort to write this because... August is finally here!!

I have no words to describe how July was for me. It was easily the worst month for me this year. I got fired from my job for the first time in my life (they overhired mind you), I cried so much, I had the most intense kind of stress from dance, my dog of 15 years died, my family got hit with a huge financial blow... I never wanna relive July again. The kind of negative emotions I had (although may have been self inflicted) was too much for me to handle. Losing the fire to go for dance practices also played a part. You know how when you dance too often, there comes a point where you start resenting dance. Then there was Xiao Bai, who left my family 3 days ago. It was an emotional Sunday where I spent half my day cradling him while he whined in pain and refused to eat and also where I had to reluctantly go for #TBG13 (which was freaking awesome btw) and finally coming home to my parents bawling while carrying an almost-dead dog who waited for me to come home before finally passing away 4 minutes after. So so touched that he waited for me before he went off to meet Bambie in doggy heaven. But still, having to lose a dog is never a good thing. 

And then there's AUGUST! My birthday month. The month I've been looking forward to. It holds so much promises, not only those from my 21st but also it's the month where DWZ's Discover Production finally takes place! All the hardwork, sweat and tears are not gonna happen for nothing. All I want is to put up a damn good show, to make an impact so dancers from other dance clubs finally know or remember who DreamWerkz is. Our standard is definitely nowhere near those various polytechnic clubs, but we have to start somewhere somehow. Even better when other dancers watch us and hold no expectations and get awed in the end. Of course, this is the best case scenario. Still, no one knows the effort the committee and I have put into this production, or for the club. I believe I've never been more committed to anything than this.

Please do not let my excitement die or be proven wrong but live up to its expectations!