Damn

It just sucks so much when I have a lot of time on my hands. 

Today was worse 'cuz I did full shift all alone with Samuel's company in between.

But with all that time I had, I couldn't help but think about everything that's been going on recently.

February hasn't been treating me good to say the least.

There has just been so many bad days where I just go to work feeling down and I really just feel like crying. I don't really know why either (and it's not pms) but... maybe I've been thinking WAY too much.

I really regret not treating the people who loves me well enough.

Instead I've been trying to get those people whom I don't mean much to to notice me. It's like I really want them to get to like me.

I'm always trying so hard. To the point that it's very much like 2nd nature to me, really.

Then I feel like my feelings get cheated?! But wtf I brought it upon myself who am I to say I wanna put an end to all the bullshit others are giving me? 

FUCK I JUST NEED TO RANT.

After 6 days of work per week, 8 hours a day I think I have a right to let out all my frustration on this little space right? Somewhere where I don't have to be constantly smiling or saying "Hi welcome". 

Who said girls are weird creatures? Guys are equally hard to figure out too. I don't know when to take them seriously.