WOOTS : getting back on track

**some overdued photos**

what's life without 3 or least 2 good friends by your side? always on standby & having 'em on speed dial.

that is wayyy past my expectations.

i certainly dun have 'em on speed dial, but i'm very sure i have a few good friends of my own (:

i totally miss my childish memories of sec2 running about, being rebellious, going against teachers, forming 'gangs' etc.

wow. that sounds so fun juz typing it out. but life now is different already.

we're big, $$ brained and mature. our complicated lil' minds filled with no-goods :D

i really find my life such a bore now. no work, no friends {'cuz they're working or overseas}, NO LIFE.

when i think of myself not having a job, i think of myself as being a good-for-nothing. OH MAN. i hate thinking this way ):

i want life t be like ruth aka lylarose's.

she is hell (!) 20 only ! and she's having a steady flow of income from her blogshop and she's featured on newspapers, recognised by ppl on e street {even e air stewardess}, have good friends who go on holidays with her {not juz malaysia but australia etc. too}.

my god. that's a handful of things t be jealous about isn't it.

man, she's legendary lur. and t think she's complaining 'bout being too busy.

i pay t be busy ! i hate t idle around feeling so useless. i'm a on-the-go kinda person. you tell me your plans, and i'm off (: i'm not talking 'bout e responsible kinda person but e always out kinda person.

probably having a bf is giving me restrictions? like, now i can't go out w my guy friends, including my good guy friends. but i still dun mind. i still can handle it.

of 'cuz, when you have a bf, it's like signing on a contract for many restrictions but still, i wouldn't barter trade any of this ridiculous restrictions for frequent outings with guys. 'cuz afterall, i dunno what i do without Nicholas (:

i know, i'm nvr gna be a good gf like other ppl who profess their never-ending love on their blog for their bf, but i hope Nicholas knows how much i love him {though i know he doesn't 'cuz he's always complaining that i dun love him enough and that he loves me more :D}.

hahas. i love fighting over such stuff. like, who loves who more.

i'm pretty happy i found him. WAIT NO. not pretty, it's "VERY happy i found him."

i hope we'll nvr break? 'cuz i certainly, already know that i'm gna go really crazy like how i was 1-2 years ago. it was crazy and i dun wna lose myself and cry my eyes out over another fucking dumb guy like *.

enough said. i wna go Chomp Chomp later ): can or not ?

oh yes, i wna thank my mum too. for always being my 'sister'. my bestest EVERYTHING.

I love you.

so much for nothing ... or not.